Man, I've been sick for the past 2 weeks. It's so shit. I had tonsillitis the other week and now I have ... I don't know what. But I can't eat anything without throwing it up later. Fun fun.

Haven't really felt like going out much lately. Usually I would jump at any chance to go drinking with the boys but lately I just feel meh. Can't be bothered. I think I misses the Brad too much and it makes me a sad panda.

I still haven't seen him yet. Though I asked him if he was free any day this week and he said probably Wednesday so hopefully I will get to see him then :]!!! Can't wait.

Jayson came over randomly yesterday and we hung out for a while. It's good hanging out with Jayson. I can just be myself and blah blah blah. Relax. He works up in Lithgow now, if I had failed to mention that before. So he comes down on the weekends.

He was telling me about how he took his friend Mel to one of Joe's parties. Apparently she was trying to hook in with Brad. I just laughed it off, but I'm so jealous hahaha. I brought it up in conversation with Brad though, and he said he doesn't even remember it but everyone said that he was throwing up and she was trying to mouth rape him. I was just like "Aw poor Brad!" Heh? No idea.

Blah blah blah. It's such torment just wondering if he's still wondering the same things as me. If he still feels the same, or if he has found someone more interesting. I kinda hate the fact that I like him so much, because I really don't want a relationship now, or for a long time. I'm not saying that's what he wants but yeah. Sometimes I just feel it's pointless to like him, because we hardly ever see each other and nothing much will come out of it in the near future anyway. So, I just don't know.

Did I mention I miss him? I am going crazy...

Anyway. Been talking to Turhan a bit lately. Well, he's been talking to me. It's a bit strange. Also, his friend Matt started talking to me out of no where. I've had him on my list for yonks and we have never spoken before. He was all like let's go to the movies. And for once I was totally uninterested! Usually I would have been like WOW a guy is asking me out OHEMGEE. But then I was just like eh, nah. Brad Brad Brad.

Bahahaha. Turhan just said he came to see me at work today. LOL!!! He never goes to the Plaza. That's immensely strange. And he says he went all the way to the Plaza just to get a waffle sandwich. What the fuck? People are so weird sometimes.

Ohhh that reminds me. Sumati is so stressing me out but I don't really have the energy to do much because I am oh-so sick. Doing weed whilst she's on that damn medication. I thought she had some common sense, seriously! I don't want my best friend to die because of some stupid split second decision to take drugs :[

Inza and Milano are all RAWR at each other at the moment. Wait, correction, always have been. Except they are both pretty much two faced and act like the best of friends in person. Though they both talk shit behind each other's backs. Funny much. At one point I did care about who was telling the truth and who wasn't, but now I just give up! I will never know what really happened back in the past because I wasn't there. And there really isn't a way to seriously to tell which one is being honest and which isn't. I mean they could both be telling parts of the truth. Who knows, and who cares? I know I don't anymore.